love

ever since the Basement new years bash i've been thinking about what i want out of a relationship, and the kind of guy i want to be in a relationship with. if you don't know the basement is the biggest youth movement in the nation, basically it's like a huge youth rally. about 4,000 people come every tuesday and you can really feel God's presence in that room. Matt Pitt [[the speaker at the Basement]] made a statement that really shocked me because it's something i never ever though to be true. he said that to some guys the most attractive girls were the ones who were on fire for God and worshipped and lived for him like it was nobody's business. and that makes me very glad to hear because lately i've started to lose hope that that's actually a good thing in guy's eyes. one of my favorite parts of IMPACT is seeing all of those guys worshipping because it gives me hope that i'll be able to snag one of those guys one day.

it just seems to me like being a firm christian isn't as important to guys as it is to girls. no offense to joey, codi, and kyle lol because you three are obviously and exception. but i mean i guess i can see why. it's nowhere near as big of a problem for girls to be accepted as it is to guys. i mean i know it's hard to stand up for Christ to a guy because you all have to be so tough. but i just wish that all the guys out there could realize how attractive it is to us if a guy is on fire for God. i know it would make this whole dating thing a lot easier. because i truly do want all of my relationships to be based on God because you can't help who you fall in love with therefore, i don't need to date someone who isn't a firm believer of Christ. but sometimes it gets so tempting to just have that short little fling with the hot guy that is a "good guy" but maybe isn't the strongest christian. especially when you think well, i can change him. because i know that is never going to work unless God gets a hold of him. it's nothing that i can do that will ever change a guy. idk. i mean i guess i've just been thinking about this a lot because i'm falling for this guy who is exactly what i said he is a "good guy" just not a very strong christian, and the thought of being able to change him has crossed my mind. it's just getting tougher to find a guy with that strong christian character, but that's exactly what i desire. and i just wish guys could see what they are missing out on cause us jesusfreaks are pretty rad.

hope i didn't offend and guys out there haha but i really do hope that yall take what i said to heart.